So its Halloween as I write this, ‘All Hallows Evening’ the celebration of remembering the dead, revolving around “humour and ridicule to confront the power of death” we carve pumpkins, we dress up in costumes and eat mountains of sweets- a brilliant celebration, especially if you are a child of have children. In my case teaching children, it amazed me that on the final day of term, we had a Halloween party at school, we weren’t terrified of the ghost costumes, or the fake blood, the zombie masks or plastic spiders. Now I know its all fakery and fun, but it made me think- what am I scared of? I’m not talking about spider, yes I am fully aware of my fear of them, or my fear of falling, but deeper than that. When do we stop to think about our fears and address how they impact on our everyday life; our careers, hobbies, friendships and relationships? Would our lives improve if we addressed them and even began to overcome them? I know that a huge part of my life was two years taken over by my fear of not being ‘good enough’ or ‘perfect’- whatever that means- and addressing those fears enabled me to achieve things I did not think possible, not just in sport, but in life, I did not ever dream I could love myself again, to appreciate my talents and use them to further myself in my career, relationships and overall attitude to life. So there you go- happy Halloween people.
In my last blog I talked about the power of the mind- linking back to that I have started to explore buddism- not a religion – as Ian Tuhovsky emplores in the book I have read (Buddism, Beginners Guide), but a way of thinking, a way of approaching life. To highlight a few points about Buddism is the way he describes being kind to yourself in order to be kind to others, to be at one with the universe and overall the ‘impermanence with suffering’. I hope to hold onto the messages that Buddism reflects- especially strengthening my open-minded attitude, thinking outside the box, page 22 of the guide really hit home about trusting yourself, and having courage the quote from Henry Ford makes perfect sense and makes me wonder why I ever let other people’s opinions take me to rock bottom ‘If I had asked people what they wanted, they would have said; faster horses’
This week I have been in Tunisia, a country I have never been to before, and in practicing this attitude, I have run barefoot on the beach – wonderful experience, back to basics running, however back to a big blister on my toe wasn’t so great . Apart from this I have run on a treadmill- wow do I miss out-door cold, wet, muddy running!! To support this my wonderful friend and sensational PT Claire Steels has devised me a weight training plan – and I have set about creating some sort of six pack to vanities sake (oh and to improve core strength!)
In addition I rode a horse down the beach and up into a cactus-ey area for two hours- was nervous to say the least, ten days prior to my first ultra marathon, falling off a horse and injuring myself would not have gone down too well..nevertheless, I hopped on and imagined I was in the Wild Wild West – and got off after, safely, with no bruises. Next I have started to write a novel- aimed at late-teens, touching on a few hefting subjects such as bullying, growing up, family issues and of course- sport. So later- I will try lobster. After asking the head chef myself (you don’t ask- you don’t get!!) we will be tucking into lobster and salmon tonight for our final dinner here!! I have never tried lobster and have had a nasty tummy all week- so it will definitely be a new experience.
My next post will be post ultra-marathon..I will have completed my first race longer than 26 miles…need I say more.